A Sanguine Melancholic's

Because they happened beyond my expectations.

2012-01-08T13:07:00.002+08:00

Holla people ! How's your first week of 2012 everyone ? Happy 2012 ! Woots :D I was pretty busy that I didn't have the time to update the blog. Sorry. Oh by the way, I've removed the chat box since it is no longer free anymore ): Sad, I am . Despite that , you can leave your comment by clicking the comment button. Hehe (:

Yeap, I really miss school and the buddies so much ! I never thought that the life after SPM could be this pathetic . I mean where you don't have friends with you around , working or stay at home all by yourself is so saddening . Honestly saying , I miss my friends' dramatic-ness and laughters . Ahh .. Guess I'm too sentimental , ain't I ? hee (:

So life has been good so far . I have a colleague now ! She's Miss Chua (: I thought she's not a friendly person but I was wrong . She actually is ! Fewwhh , I'm not gonna be alone in the office anymore ! *winks* She's a married woman and a mother to two . Yeah , literally I'm the youngest and the prettiest . LOL . I was just kidding (: But yes , I'm the youngest ! 18-to-be (: Wow ~ How time flies . I'M EIGHTEEN ! Hehh .

I'm kinda scared when thinking of the result day now . Urrgghh . That feeling is so annoying ! I know I might not be able to strike all A's but arrgghh ~ Please pray the best for me people (': Huhu .

And woopps , I didn't know that Chi Yan has started working until she texted me . Wooh ! Enjoy working buddy ! Miss you (: and the rest too !

Assalamualaikum ♥

Love and loyalty tells everything .

2011-12-26T11:35:00.000+08:00

Peace be upon you and hello fellow readers ! (:

Since I've started working, I only could post an entry once in a week. Sigh. Pity the blog, I could see dust and moss are everywhere. Hehe :D

Ya know, I've learned a lot from the Bosses , Mr. Calvin and Ms. Yip. I swear they are very kind and helpful person ! I'm so touched and therefore I pledged to myself I'm gonna work hard for them. They pay my salary okay ! Hehe :D

So last Thursday, when I was busy learning some new things from the boss , he suddenly came out with this one sad story . Here it goes ~

This man was actually a brilliant person . He chose Law field as his carrier . He worked as a lecturer first in this one particular private law academy . He was being excellent that the ex-principal and the current principal were very appreciated him to work under them . So one day , the principal offered him to go to this one law academy for law training . He was so happy for being offered and told his wife about it . However , the wife didn't agree with him because the allowance he would be getting was way lower than his salary back then . Just imagine , his salary was about 10 thousand plus and if he followed the training , he would be only getting less than a thousand bucks . Thus , he carried on his life as a lecturer .

As years went by , the enthusiasm to be a lawyer in him couldn't be controlled anymore . He resigned and set up a company by himself . To shorten the story , he failed . He tried to set up another two companies and yet he messed up them all . Despite all that , his wife has become a successful businesswoman . She opened a beauty saloon (something like that) and she succeeds .

This was the most tragic part , one fine morning both of them woke up from bed . Without any fight and arguement his wife asked for a divorce . " You can keep the kids and this house. You can keep everything. I'm only gonna pack my stuffs and live a new life in a new house. " the wife said . What happened was , the wife has met a new richer guy that has bought a bungalow for her .

Honestly , I was almost burst my tears . The wife is so mean . She shouldn't left the husband just like that , am I right ? Even his husband was all broke , as a wife , she should be there with the husband , through thick or thin . As a growing up girl , I feel so embarrassing . Pity the kids though . They're growing without the touch from a mother now . The wife has totally left and forgotten about them .

Another thing I've learned , life is actually not just about earning big amount of money . Life is nothing without love and loyalty in it . And even one has failed in his step to succeed , as a husband/wife/ family , we should stand strong together and guide one another . It would be the sweetest thing that could ever happens if what we've done together has been so fruitful . Don't be blind just because of wealthiness . It was a test from Him . I thank Allah for He has given me a chance to understand and learn more about LIFE .

Guess , will be seeing you guys in the next entry . Till then ! :D

Assalamualaikum ♥

DUES EX MACHINA !

2011-12-17T15:48:00.000+08:00

Peace be upon you ! Hello ! The title doesn't even related to any ex boyfriend or ex girlfriend or whatseoever ex word . Just came across with the word when I was searching some word's meaning in my dictionary and the way to pronounce is sort of interesting . Hehe . So, it stands for the unexpected power or event saving a seemingly hopeless situation . A word derived from Greek's .

Done with the title's explanation and now here I go ~

I was being pretty lifeless just when SPM ended few weeks ago . I couldn't let myself rotting at home by doing nothing . Ya know, waking up early in the morning, finish up doing all the house chores and end the day up with internet was just plainly unproductive . Plus, I'm broke . If I keep the same thing repeated over and over again , I wouldn't get any income at all ! Hence , I bug my parents to allow me to work . Mom found a suitable job for me and yeah , kinda sticking to it for this time being .

I'm now working under this one secretary company as a general clerk . Just a clerk though but the experiences I am getting are precious and worthy ! On the first day , I was only handed with filing task . Thought it was gonna be my job and was relieved because filing just so easy. Heck yeah. The next day , the boss taught accounts and BAM ! I have to do the accounting stuffs (which I don't know how to describe further, sorry) . In the first place , it was freaking though and I almost abhor my job . I was a pure science student and never studied accounts before , OKAY ! I did have the urge to cry but managed to overcome it . I was kinda under pressure for about 2 days because of trying to get use of myself with accounts .

Alhamdulillah , my boss and his wife are such nice people . They understood my situation and never stopped teaching me . They guided me perfectly and I'm really touched . By seeing their effort to see me do well with my job , my spirit bloomed to work harder ! I love my life (: Thank You Allah ! (:

I thought I'm gonna be alone during lunch time and I was literally wrong ! Sometimes either the boyfie or mom will be my company . Since mom is too working in the same building , I feel so much safer and protected . Hehe . (While I'm typing all these, it was drizzling outside ! Ohh~)

Boss said , " Accounts teach us the virtue of patience . Don't be silly , don't have to rush . Be meticulous with the numbers and you will be meticulous in your life too " . Thank you Mr. Calvin ! (:

However, my heart still belong with science (: Accounts, thanks for giving me another precious experience ! LOL . What lah am I saying ni ? Sorry , I'm a newbie in this thing and very excited about it . Hehe . So people , patience is a part of everything ! Things might become better and fruitful if you nurture it in your daily life . Experience , is like the bonus . Be forever thankful to God and He'll never stop to bless and give you mercy . InsyaAllah ! (:

See you guys in the next entry ! Spread love ! ♥

Assalamualaikum ♥

What goes up must comes down

2011-12-08T12:58:00.000+08:00

Hey people ! Hope you guys having a great day. It is still early in the morning and it's such a nice weather out there. Very soothing.

Would like to share with you guys a bit. Yesterday, I went to Mid Valley with the boyfie, Amir, to watch Ombak Rindu. Bet you guys know what movie is that. Since the movie is quite famous now and the responds from those who have watch it is very positive, I'm so eager to watch ! I planned to head there early because I knew the ticket will be sold out fast ! I reached there around 12 something, which I thought a perfect timing. Quickly queued with a big hope because the earliest show at 2.05 pm. Apparently, I was wrong. The tickets were all sold out ): I'm kinda sad. I mean, really sad actually.

End up, we watched Puss In Boots. Hey, it's a very cute movie though ! Didn't know that cats are good in acting too. Haha. If you have younger brothers or sisters or maybe kids, you should bring them to watch this movie. Although it's just a cartoon kind, but I tell you here, it teaches a lot on how to be steadfast in a friendship. I rate 4/5 for the movie (:

The craved to eat Carl's Jr has finally been paid off. Thank You Love (:

We walked around Mid Valley and The Gardens like a couple of zombies. Hehe. Suddenly, there was an Indian aunty asked us the way out from Mid Valley to the KTM station. Since I was afraid I would explain wrongly, Amir and I guided her to the station. She was about to cry because she has taken a long time to find the way out so she afraid if she couldn't go home in time. I pitied her. She's not young anymore and she didn't bring handphone with her. I wonder what would happen to her if she didn't ask us. Sent her till The Face Shop since she said from there she knew how to go. She thanked us and I could see her tears almost rolling down to her cheeks.

From there, another lesson learned. Ya know, the feeling after offering help to those who in needs is really a big pleasure regardless their religions and races. We're the same, human beings after all living under one sky. We shared the place in the same world. Don't be snobbish. It ain't worth your life. What goes around comes around. Who knows one day, we might need others' help too ? Remember, life has its black and white (:

The mirth ~

2011-12-04T22:19:00.000+08:00

Wow. What a record. I posted two entries in a day ? Wow. Haha. Guess I was just too bored.

I went to Times Square this afternoon to accompany Zulaiha. She wanted to buy new attires to wear tomorrow. Yeap, she just got a job. Happy for her though :D She shopped a lot. I mean, she's not the kind who loves to shop! I think she's excited for her first working day. Thought of watching movies but we were running out of time. I'm broke, people. I need to save up some money :D Hehe. Talked about saving up money, hmm I just spent the money that ayah gave to buy a new pair of heels. I couldn't resist myself from not buying it. It's too cute to be left in the shop alone :P Wanna show it to Amir and see what is he gonna respond. :D

I was on the twitter while ago. Well, was a bit productive since Hannah and I are planning to fast on this Thursday. We are so looking forward to it! Woohoo~ Thank you Hannah ! Due to that, I've became more happier! I love being happy :') Alhamdulillah (: Ya know, the excitement to get closer to Allah is very indescribable. By thinking the reward we'll be getting and fighting the nafs on His path are such a wonderful thing in life actually. World isn't a sure and permanent thing but Akhirat is. Alhamdulillah and Thank You Allah (: I'm so proud and thankful to be born as a Muslim !

One thing I hath just realized, sometimes and some people is actually matured than their age. I still remember one of my friends criticized me because of making friends with the people younger than us. She said I might follow them by being immature. Her perspective was actually wrong. Definitely wrong. The right prove is before my eyes now. I'm glad that I didn't follow her. This is one of the lessons I've learned. Ahh, experience ~

Signing off ! (:

I'm a forever 5 Belian's

2011-12-04T11:56:00.001+08:00

I wanna share some emotions of a school leaver. (does it sounds right?) I have promise myself to deactivate my facebook. I forgotten that Mabel's using mine too. So, if I deactivate it, no use. Mabel will log in it too. What I gotta do is, restrain myself from logging in. Looks like it's working. Hehe.

" The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows.
It's a very mean and nasty place and I don't care how tough you are it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it.
You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life.
But it ain't about how hard ya hit.
It's about how hard you can get it and keep moving forward.
... How much you can take and keep moving forward.
That's how winning is done!
Now if you know what you're worth then go out and get what you're worth.
But ya gotta be willing to take the hits, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you wanna be because of him, or her, or anybody!
Cowards do that and that ain't you! You're better than that!

- Rocky Balboa

Its a meaningful quote for me and i hope we can hang out in the future. "

Seen those words above ? Yeap, Kin Hing posted it on our class wall on Facebook. I was about to cry and yeap I cried eventually when I read their comments. I could see the friendship bond there was very strong. We miss each other so much. I mean, the whole class. I love them. Even some of them are literally annoying but they were such a bunch of blissful barbarians. (Well, that's what some of the teachers call them). They are planning a grand reunion right after some of the classmates done with Chinese papers. I'm certainly not gonna plan since I kinda sucks at doing it. Hehe.

Oh, just in case if you came across with my blog. Okay girl. Stop calling him ' Abang Amir '. I'm kinda jealous and you're making it sounds disgusting because it came out of your mouth. Even I myself didn't call him that way, okay ! Proven, Amir's forever mine so here a piece of an advice for you, if you want someone to be a part of your heart, make sure he doesn't belong with somebody else. You know, it hurts ever girls' heart. You're not in our shoes so you won't experience it for real. Just imagine you're in an ocean. Just keep on diving and I'm sure you'll find someone single and better than mine. Stop being a pathetic nuisance. Don't make yourself being cursed. You're a girl. A young girl. You shouldn't do this. It's such a shameful manner. Put your pride up on the top not underneath your feet. You should prioritize your dignity. Okay kiddo ? Dah pergi cari ' Abang ' kau sendiri. I'm signing off. (:

nalzaneemsay is my alter ego

2011-12-03T11:51:00.001+08:00

Wow. I just realised that I've been cursing lots these days. I mean seriously, I can't even recognised myself when I read back all my tweets ( and the previous post ) . Ya know, all those F words like flowing out from my mouth just like waterfall. Which certainly different from what I used to be. I never used those vulgar words except in some cases that turned me into a mad person. From now on, I swear to myself not to curse anymore. Yeap, I did. Apologies for my insolent doings. I didn't mean purposely. I just meant those for certain person (yeap, that bitch which officially my truest enemy now). I'm so sorry (:

(I forgotten that I just allowed one person to read my blog. Haha. Well never mind lah).

I'm dying to know whether it's killing you like it's killing me

2011-12-02T22:04:00.002+08:00

# The Story Of Us - Taylor Swift

Hey lovelies (: I seriously didn't have any idea to blog today. I was just staying at home and waiting for myself to get rotten slowly. LOL. This is what you would go through after your SPM has finally over. Be ready ~

I stayed at my grandparents' just now since Atuk's gonna be alone at home. So, my brother and I decided to accompany him. Yeah right, I was the only who loyally stayed there. My bro whet to futsal after he came back from the mosque. Yet, day turned out to be so cool. Ucik came back from accompanying grandma to the hospital (which I was the one who always did that) . BAM ! She told me a lot of stories. I got to collect loads of life's lesson there. Pretty cool.

I just knew that my uncle, Ucik's husband, who I call him as Pak Cik Shahrin, is such an amazing guy. He looks so cool from the outside but from the way Ucik shared some with me, he's a whole lot different. Well, guys. Can't get away from ego. Hehe. He has gone through a lot of obstacles in his life and yet he managed to get over them. I mean, calmly ?. Oh come on ! If I were him, I would just ran away from this world. If only there's another Earth lah. Muehehe :D He was a lawyer years ago but he's not anymore since his partner in the lawyer firm betrayed him. After then, he had to face a lot of troubles and BAM ! He has now found his career and has became a successful man.

HE IS A MANCHESTER UNITED ENTHUSIAST JUST LIKE ME TOO ! MUAHAHAHA >D

And yeah finally, I just admitted to Ucik. For all this while, I've been stalking Pak Cik Shahrin's blog. Hey, with a purely nice intention. Fyi, he's really good in English. He studied Law in University Malaya and he didn't have to take this one year English course. The most shocking thing is, he once marked those Harvard's Master students exam papers ! Check out his blog, you might improvise your English too just like what I'm doing now (: click here

They've known each other since the past TWENTY YEARS . Yeap, since they were in Form 6 at Victoria's Institution. Alhamdulillah, Allah has granted their prayers to be together until now (: They got married when I was 5 and I was one of the flower girls. Hehe. The way he tried to flirt Ucik was very cute. He failed in his first attempt and succeeded in his second attempt and right up until now and FOREVER INSYA-ALLAH ! (: They are blessed with three adorable truly lovely kids. Yeah, they are my cousins now (: From what Ucik told me and what I've observed, no doubt, he's such a lovely father and husband. Boleh tahan jiwang weh. Alhamdulilah (:

I'm not gonna drag this entry. Hehe. To Ucik, Murnihati Ali Bashah and Pak cik, Shahrin AlBakri, I'm very happy and thankful for having both of you as my uncle and aunt. You guys are the sweetest , most awesome couple ever. Ucik, thanks for sharing the stories with me. I've learned a lot from there. May Allah bless your marriage forever. Amin~

I don't think it's wrong for me to dream about my marriage right ? I hope I'll be destined with the best guy to be my soul partner. I've found one and in hope Allah grants my prayers. Bet you guys know who he is. Hehe. InsyaAllah (:

I presented you my lovely cousins ♥

From left: Farah Batrisyia , Harith Haiqal and Nureen Sabrina (:

ehem ehem : A successful marriage requires falling in love many times, always with the same person. - Mignon Mclaughlin

Of Zahiril Adzim and Shera Ayob

2011-12-01T22:07:00.003+08:00

Zahiril Adzim + Shera Aiyob // 20.11.2011 // Highlights from Sweet Motion Production on Vimeo.
Dah tengok ? Fuiyoh sekali lafaz je tu oh ! Muka wat lek wat piece je (: Okay, I admired Shera's nikah dress. Lovely gila :D So, when is my turn pula ni ? HAHAHA *slapself* Semoga jodoh mereka berkekalan (: Amin (: Comel nya ~

I'm stepping into a new world ;D

2011-12-01T09:37:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum ! Hello !

Yesterday, was a day to be remembered for the rest of my life indeed ! Nov 30th has witnessed my freedom . I mean, I'M DONE WITH SCHOOL'S LIFE . It ain't that cool though . I feel a tad awkward yesterday night when I looked at my books . Uh oh . This wasn't a good sign .

Mabel , Me and Nicole ! (:

And .. guess what , I managed to control myself from crying in front of the people ! WHAT AN ACCOMPLISHMENT ! Pfftt . I cried a bit when the invigilator collected my last paper . It was the tears of joy , I supposed . Hehe . My body was literally shaking as I went out of the class for the LAST TIME . All of them were really happy . Mabel too , despite her last paper on next Tuesday .

Raihaan brought her one of her school uniforms and she asked all of us to sign on it . It was so wonderful to see everyone's signature and a little speech there . Yeap , I was on the verge of tears . I just couldn't believe this . It took me seconds to tell myself that ' Hey , these are gonna be memories ! We are all no more called as students . ' How fast time has passed by ~ . I'm kinda sad now ..

The boys , did something really EPIC . They jumped into the pond between Block B and Block C . That was so outrageous ! Can you imagine , jumped into the dirty , mossy water ? If I were to vomit , they should have done by preparing a pail for me ! It was fun though . Really one of the best memories I've ever had .

Zulaiha , Marlina , Me , Raihaan and Farah (:

Gonna miss all of them very muchy much ! They are awesome ! Hehe . I planed to take the whole classmates photo but unfortunately , some of them had to go home early . I was a bit frustrated things didn't turn out as I've planned . Hey , Allah knows better kan ? (:


The meanest girlfriend , Izzah (:

Yeap , we planned a lot of things for the after-SPM- activity . Nahh , I'm perfectly broke because of my phone crashed badly . Now , I don't have a communication device except my social webs . Sad kan ? Currently thinking to find a suitable job for me . I wanna buy a new phone with my own money ! Maybe it'll take a longer time but hey , patience is virtue (:

From 3rd of January 2007 till 30th of November 2011 . From 1 Amanah , 2 Maju , 3 Amanah , 3 Usaha , 4 Belian and 5 Belian . Now , I'm officially over them . Woo ~ I wanted to tell you a lot of things but they are so indescribable ! Seriously !

Oh , hey boyfie (: Happy 2 years and 3 months . In hope ours will last (: Amin ~

It has been quite a while since ... Oh wait , SPM !

2011-11-10T12:23:00.000+08:00

Hey ya people ! I know I know I didn't post anything since the last 3 months . Okay , here the thing that made this blog dead for 3 months , dad forgot to pay the bill and just as in coincidence , Aliq's PMR was around the corner that time and so , he resisted to pay -.-

I kept persuaded him to do what he is supposed to do , and now , I'm back ! :D

Only for this one post , because of a request of that somebody . Yeah , you tahu lah siapa :P

Yay people ! Next week , all the candidates of SPM will be sitting for the biggest examination in our lives . Somehow , can't wait to get over SPM but in the mean time , I don't have the heart yet to say goodbye to my school life ! Dayyuummnnn , I can't believe that I'm reaching the ending of my school life after 12 years . Sad , it is ..

Okay , It is not that I didn't study . I studied from 8.30 till 11.45 just now . I'm resting since it is the lunch time . Apa lagi , go you tube dengar lagu lah ^^ Mabel , seriously , I got addicted by Beast - Fiction . Like quite absurd right ? I know I know . I love their dance step especially . Easy to catch and very simple . Oh , they called it as penguin step . I don't have any idea why do they name those steps that way ._. Anyway , Beast , keep rock on !

Rolling on you tube , I found my last year "crush" , Asher Monroe :) Ahhh , he is getting more charming ~ LOL . Drop that . SPM Yasmeen ! Ish . Try listen to his new song , Like I Do . How lovely ~ Still , I prefer his I'm Yours but can't beat I'm Yours by The Script , the sweetest song ever kan Chi Yan ? (Y) Greyson Chance , oh mann , he is all grown up lah ! Wait , he got no that chubby face anymore :( Anyway dude , all the best yaww !

Eh , hello , salah photo deyy -.- Sorry , I don't have any stress-out-face-photo .But seriously , I'm so stress out until I babbled to much at my boyfie . Well , at least I said sorry . Wait , ada tak sy cakap sorry ? Err ._.

Back to my SPM life , if I ever said that I'm ready for it , so obvious that I was lying . Who the hell would ever be ready to sit for SPM ?? Even my teachers said that if they got the chance to repeat , they'd rather not to repeat . So you guys , please pray the best for us !

In this opportunity , I would like to seek forgiveness on my wrong doings , halal kan lah yea segala yang telah diberikan . I'm such a normal human being who never ever can't avoid from my own flaw . I'm terrified to aim straight A+ because I know my own ability . With Allah's blessings , I'm pursuing as many A's as I can !
InsyaAllah ..

She's the woman

2011-07-27T20:45:00.000+08:00

Whatever you give a woman, she will make it greater. Give her a house, she will give you a home. Give her groceries, she will give you a meal. Give her a smile, she will give you her heart. She multiplies & enlarges what is given to her. So if you give her crap, be ready to receive a ton of shit!

This what I've read on somebody's facebook status ! :D

Never sorrow Never below .

2011-07-24T17:39:00.000+08:00

EVERYTHING HAS FINALLY BEEN PAID OFF !

Yeah , that's the only statement that I or should I say , WE could come out with . As you guys had already know , yesterday was our sport's day and it was so splendid despite getting sunburn . We the Laksamana have just managed to get into the 2nd place . All praises be to Allah :) Well yeah , we were on the last place overall before and apparently , that could not succeed to bring us down . Proud of the athletes , cheerleaders , and the rest of Laksamana's members due to their work hard , support and everything that they have given to Laksamana . See , like I said , Laksamana is climbing up to the tip of the victory silently :) Muehehehe .

And yeah , to my cheerleaders , all the sweats has also finally worth it right ? We skipped class 2 days before the event started and stay back till late evening and now we are on the first place babeyh ! :D Hope you guys can maintain this triumph kayh ? I know it sounds not that easy but with the effort and sacrifice that you will put on , you'll find the light one day :)

Honestly , I'm , too , proud of Rumah Merah ( Temenggung ) . After years they've been in the last place , now they have proved that they can make it to the top too ! So impressive . Siapa kata rumah merah tak ada athletes ? Even they have little athlete but the talent they got was enormous . From this story , a lesson learned , never underestimate anybody . You can be envious of their success and make it as your inspiration to succeed as well . Well , life's norm lah kan , sekejap kat atas sekejap kat bawah ye tak ? Mana - mana rumah pun boleh menang tahun depan :)

I feel regret a bit . I didn't spend time with my girlfriends . I hope they could understand what I have been doing yesterday . Deep apologize from me yeah .

Was standing next to a Pilot-to-be :)

Muehehe . Had a great time also with Amir even though we had to lari here and there because of no shade to sit . Fuhhh . It has been awhile since we didn't spend time together . Took photos and shared some stories of us had contribute another precious memory to me . Should have given some credits to EE though for being the photographer for us . Hehe :D Hope this will last long :') Amin ~

ehem ehem : If you really understood my situation , you won't throw any vulgar words to me . Thanks " buddy " . Masya-Allah ..

We are all born superstars

2011-07-22T21:00:00.000+08:00

# Born this way - Lady Gaga .

I'm so excited and nervous in the same time to look forward to tomorrow . Finally , the biggest yearly event in school arrives . Sport's Day 2011 fuhhh ! Been waiting since early of January because usually our sport's day event will be held in the first semester but this year , they've changed a bit . I remember the time when teacher announced that our sport's day event will be held in the second semester , everybody was whining because it was quite a long time to wait for it . Well people , the moment is tomorrow !

Although I'm not taking part in the most excitement event , still , I can feel the heat . Since this is my last year , I'm so gonna give out all my support to my sport house . LAKSAMANA ! I'm putting a big hope to my cheerleaders to win the competition . Hope they'll perform the best tomorrow . We've been practising since the past 1 month and a half and really hope everything tomorrow gonna worth all the tears , sweats , pains , injuries and fatigues . Yeah , my voice sounds a bit crack because I shouted too much .

Gonna update you guys more tomorrow , Insya-Allah :) I'm too tired to type more . Before that ..

YELLOW YELLOW NEVER SORROW

YELLOW YELLOW NEVER BELOW !

ehem ehem : Make this event as a clean competition . No sabotages and no negative impressions . Life's like a wheel , remember ? :)

2011-07-21T21:19:00.000+08:00

I can feel the whole part of my body is aching now . Fewwhh . Can't really update you guys now :/ Hella tired !

2011-07-19T21:25:00.003+08:00

I pretended like I never knew you
So , I moved on .
But ..

I LIED TO MY HEART .

because imissyoubadly

I define you .

2011-07-18T21:41:00.001+08:00

Your giggles

Your laughter

Your voice

Your random act

Your lame jokes

Your smile

Your words

Your advises

Your coldness

Your arguments

Your flaws

Your enthusiasm in your passion

Your idiosyncrasy

Your sagacity

Your stupidity

In other's eyes , all of yours might look the same
In my eyes , I don't have to say more because they are different in your own way
Somehow , the praises I've given to you are just mean nothing
For you have a lot of friends out there and I'm such nobody
You used to claim that you got no one else than me
I was too stupid to believe that
Now I'm alone rather being alone
Than accompanied with deceptions
Whom I used to appreciate and meant the world to me
Farewell ...

I'm still not that mean . May He shows the truth to you .

Wearing Hijab ain't a torment

2011-07-18T19:22:00.001+08:00

Heyya People :)

I've been on twitter few hours ago and came across with this quote from an account " The Islamic Thinking " . It was quite inspirational . Such a wise words .

" Putting on a hijab isn't the end of the journey . It's just the beginning of it "

I wholeheartedly agreed with it . Yes , I'm also one of those Muslims who is putting on a hijab on her head almost for the whole day . I myself started to wear hijab since I was in Form 2 . Although some of my family members didn't agree with my decision at first , but they accepted mine at last . Due to instructions from The Almighty , I've changed bit by bit . I wasn't a nice kid before , to be honest . All praises be to Allah , He has shown me the right way to get closer to Him .

I'm not good enough , I admit it but nowadays people tend to think negative about wearing hijab . Well , not gonna blame them either because this is world , so we should have understand them . The most obvious part is , most of the Muslim's women reluctant to change for better . I meant , change to in a way of wearing hijab . Sometimes , can't judge them straight away also because maybe Allah wanna show them something and will open their heart in the future to wear hijab . Yeah , things happen for reasons right ?

I managed to get a verse from the holy Al-Quran . The clearest verse on the requirement of the hijab is surah 24:30–31, asking women to draw their khimar over their bosoms.

And say to the believing women that they should lower their gaze and guard their modesty; that they should not display their beauty and ornaments except what (must ordinarily) appear thereof; that they should draw their khimar over their bosoms and not display their beauty except to [...] (Qur'an 24:31)

- Courtesy : Wikipedia

Not meant to insult anyone . Just sharing my point of view . In fact nowadays , there are a lot of styles to wear hijab . So , I think it's not really outdated to wear hijab , am I right ?

Photo Courtesy : Google Image

I think I'm done with this post . I'm so sorry if anyone of you feel insulted because honestly , I didn't mean to make you feel so .

Whatever shits

2011-07-17T14:05:00.000+08:00

The most awesome cover for this song ! Jyeahh . Incredibly awesome ! Truly , I was speechless when the first moment I listened to this song . Well , that's only on my opinion , I don't know how about you guys out there .

Two thumbs up for Demi Lovato . If I had more than two thumbs , I would lift up each and every of it . Definitely . This song has shown the versatility and maturity side of her . She can go further with this song as her beginning . Congrats Demi ! Again , they were only on my opinion , any other thoughts anyone ? :)

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Sigh . Eventually , I just knew what had other people thought of me . Useless , hopeless , not a supportive person . What else ? A lot of negative thoughts of me . These seriously have bring me down to the core . Well , not for a long period of time . I would take this to the bright side and change em' . On my second thoughts , everyone has their negative side , right ? To whom this may concern , you know who you are , thank you so much for making me realized about em' anyways . I ain't flawless . As though you're perfect . This might sounds harsh but whatever , I was offended without any sorry of you . So , why should I feel sorry for this ? Looks like I'm getting this case from worse to worse , ain't I ? Sigh , such an endless pathetic story . Tired of this already . Why can't we just set an end and start all over again without doubt ?

Sorry people . I'm not in a good mode .

2011-07-17T00:37:00.001+08:00

IF

I just didn't care less about it .
Because I feel so embarrassed , am I the only one who eagerly trying to fix everything ?

Susah sangat ke nak nampak aku rindu kau ? Tak kan itu pun aku nak kena bagitahu berulang - ulang kali ?

2011-07-15T23:21:00.001+08:00

Heyya people :)

The recently hot topic amongst SPM's student now is , National Service ! Every morning and all day long the student will keep talking about it . When they announced that we could already check whether we got chosen or not , the page for National Service was jammed badly . We couldn't even go through it . Thought that the sms service would help us but we were wrong . It was also the same . Seriously , it was kinda a funny case where we were advised to check during midnight . Seems like we all were so excited about it .

At first , I thought it was just a rumours so I decided not to check until the announcement would be made . Nahhh , I was wrong . A lot of my friends had checked theirs so I was a bit being left out . The first person amongst my friend who got chosen was Chloe . Her reaction ? Don't ask . Very funny xD Then , Elizabeth , Michelle also got chosen . This has tempted me to check mine . Thus , I sent a message to 15888 . I didn't receive anything . I tak puas hati , hantar berkali-kali but hampeh satu pun tak reply . Dalam hati , dah nak meletup sebab excited doh . But actually , I've sent a message earlier by using Elizabeth's phone since she brought hers to school . Could tell right how excited was I ? I really wanna get chosen ! This kinda experience you'll only get once in a lifetime despite the allowance . Hehe .

But nahhh , the day after , Cheryl told me that I didn't get . Why lah Cheryl ? Why didn't just Elizabeth come and tell me by herself ? Anyways , past is past . I almost cried , honestly . Athirah dapat , aku tak :( Sob sob . Yang pelik lah kan , a lot of my chinese friends got chosen . Yang malay pun Athirah , Syafiq , Ain , Emi . Itu jea lah yang aku dengar setakat ni . Their so lucky , very lucky . :)

Stop with NS , come back with trials . After raya . AFTER RAYA ? Meaning , I'm not gonna raya then . Never mind , for the sake of my future , I would sacrifice everything including raya . But I wanna raya too :( When mum talks about baju raya , I would have no mood to join her . So , I told her I don't want any baju raya lah . Easy . Okay , nak raya juga laahhhhhh ! Trials , kau memang dengki kan dengan aku . Siap kau aku kerjakan -.-

I wonder if you weren't there

In the midst of nightmare

Who's gonna hold me tight

In the dark of the night

Either we start with a new hey or we end with the same goodbye

2011-07-14T21:07:00.000+08:00

Dance in the rain while heart is in pain

My life's getting pathetic .

I couldn't thing of a song that can inspire me right now

2011-07-13T21:49:00.000+08:00

Heyya people ? How's life ?

Well mine , quite in misery lately . This whole week is so mercilessly . Something has just happened out of blue . Yes , I am still in a state of shock that I couldn't sleep at night . I'm trying so hard to be strong . Sigh . All the mishaps , really taught me something .

Since Arnisya has signed up for the make up competition , she has to find a model and yeah apparently , she chose me . I was a bit flabbergasted at first because that was so absurd . In fact , I hate putting on make up on my face . It feels like I am faking myself . Well , that's another fact about me . I agreed at last since this is my last year so why not ?! Doing things that out of your mind sometimes is fun though ! :D No doubt , she was quite good actually . I barely couldn't recognize myself back then . I was so different . The teachers said the same thing too . I got teased by Cik Azilawati , she took a picture of me and wanna give it to Amir . I knew she was only joking . If she really did that , I'm so gonna run far away ! She doesn't know what has exactly happen between us right now . For that , I forgive her instantly .

I'm craving for a mcflurry and durian . Alex posted a photo of durian in facebook . Gurrhh . I wanna eat durian lah :( I didn't know that he loves durian until he posted about it . Wow , almost all of my chinese friends love durian . I'm so happy ! Especially Becca . Hehe :) So delighted with this kinda thing . This is kinda unusual for me .

Gonna sign off . Suddenly , I don't have the mode to post more . I'm trying to be as positive as I can !

ehem ehem : Everyone knows how to fake a smile . Yeah , I've been doing that either . I miss you like a lot , really !

2011-07-12T15:09:00.000+08:00

The craziest yet the hardest thing I could ever do
Denying the pain and put on the smile all day long
But inside it has slipped down to a pitfall
If you could ever read mine
You would find all the answers there
All the words that hard for me to confess
All the words that have stucked in my chest
And one day I'm gonna wave my last goodbye

2011-07-12T00:55:00.000+08:00

Why is it hard for me with the last goodbye ?

I've been hurt so much and why do I still want to keep it in mine ?

Why is it hard for me to get rid of you far away from my life ?

Why do I have to break my tears upon the same thing over and over again ?

Why do I have to let myself fall into agony ?

Why do I have to feel myself is worthless ?

Why did you appear in my life just to stay only for a little while ?

Why do I have to think of anything that is impossible to subside ?

Why do I have to question all this ?

2011-07-12T00:47:00.000+08:00

In the tremendous sea of faces
I realized I was in the wrong game
I got defeated and brutally condemned
Both leg shaken and there I stumbling down

Thought I was truly strong
Obviously I was wrong
Had to confront with the unwanted opponent
Had to deal with the disillusionment

Punahkan takut di hati

2011-07-06T17:21:00.001+08:00

# Tentang Dia - Melly Goeslaw feat Evan

Heyya people ! Guess what ? We , the Muslim students were having a talk in conjunction with Israk and Mikraj . I tell ya , the Ustaz who was responsibled to give the talk just now was so funny ! He managed to liven up the talk because at first , I thought that the talk would be bored since his face looks kinda fierce . He gave a lot of advices to us since we are teenagers and still got a learn of things we should know and be concerned about . One hour wasn't enough for me . I want more however , time was being jealous . Hehe . Seriously , I wish there was an ustaz like him in our school . He was so supportive because I could see that through his stories . By the way , his name is Ustaz Habibullah . He told us that Habibullah means " kekasih Allah " . I'm sure the Muslim know it right ? :) If you guys attended this talk , I bet you guys would walk out from the hall without regrets . Subhanallah ♥

Seriously , my left leg is still pain . I feel like don't wanna walk but I have to . Hmm . I'm afraid if I have to face a major internal injury . Urgghh . Hope so , not .

Ouh ouh , this song at the bottom here , the last time I listened to this song was quite years ago until I forgot the name of the song . Last Sunday , I accidentally terdengar this song in Fly Fm . Lagu ni buat teringat zaman kecik kecik lah pula . Haha . I know imma kinda lame now . Anyway , enjoy :D

ehem ehem : Be sure with your intention and what are you gonna do with it , because Allah can read it and punish you anytime He wants . All praises be to Allah ♥

2011-07-06T16:50:00.001+08:00

You think that yourself is perfect ? Please , show and prove it to the world ..

It is totally a deception .

Because everyone knows , nobody is perfect .

I could stick around and get along with you

2011-07-05T17:57:00.000+08:00

# Hello - Martin Solveig ft Dragonette

Heyya people ! Today wasn't really a good day for me, yeah . Not really but not that pathetic . I thought Imma gonna be alone in the class since Raihaan , Farah and Marlina were attending the smart learning thingy . Thank God , Zulaiha didn't follow them so practically , she accompanied me the whole day in the class . The class was a bit dull due to Kushaal's absence . Get well soon buddy :) I told him that maybe his fever was his payback because last week during chemistry class , teacher asked all of us to complete the module from page 57 till 61 and he was so envied of me , he persuaded teacher , asked me to complete till page 66 . The "best" part was , out of 35 students in the class , I WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO HAD TO COMPLETE TILL PAGE 66 . How awesome babeyh ! -.- .

So , during recess time , I met them for a while and they complained that the seminar thingy was boring . They came out with an evil idea , to stay in the class . I was like " Makk aii , dah bayar 25 bucks tak kan nak belah macam tu jea -.- " Seriously , membazir right if they just leave the seminar like that . Eventually , they all pun continue juga even hati tak rela . Tak apa lah buddies , may every effort you guys put gonna be worth okay ?

Sukantara rumah kuning , HAHAHAHA . Like tak boleh ciput lagi kah ? -.- Whatever , as long as I passed some of the acara . Fuuhhhh , that part yes ! Memang pathetic gila . Hehe . Before I went back home , my leg got cramp and I tell ya , freakin' pain like hell weyh . I was so scared because I thought I can't walk anymore . Luckily , Hafeeza was there though she was so panic . Pn. Paramjit kept asking me to stand and let the feet to touch the ground . If I were brave and insolent enough , I would shout at her face because my leg at that moment was freaking pain . I never learned that kind of method throughout being a paramedic . That was so ridiculous -.- . My leg eventually felt better by the aid of my supergirlfriends , Su Wen , Char Lie , Hafeeza , Shiao Yen and Chloe . Fuhhh , if they weren't there , I got no idea how to stay with Pn. Paramjit's method weyh . Hisham was being sarcastic ouh " Star kaki cramp kea " with the evil grin on his face . Ish , nasib baik kaki baru baik , kalau tidak , sepak terbang aku bagi tahu ! . Haha . My plan to walk home was canceled so Syahirah sent me home . :)

Have to be ready for tomorrow . I'm afraid my leg buat hal lagi . Chiao~

ehem ehem : I'm in love with a guy which initially , I didn't even know who he was . All praises be to Allah ♥

Maybe we're torn apart

2011-07-04T14:22:00.001+08:00

# Empty - The Click Five .

Heyy blog . Seriously , I need to vent a bit of my anger and hatred to ya . I know this might sounds silly , but really , I need to do so .

Trial is around the corner and I just knew that they had have changed the date to August 24th and yes , dah nak dekat . Fuhh fuhh barely breathing now . Obviously , I haven't completed the syllabus for all the subjects that I have taken and yes , I can feel the force now . Wooh ~

SPM is getting nearer yet my family is going further . I just don't know how to explain . I feel like myself is a ghost at home because I don't feel anybody noticed my existence . Pfffttt , I don't know how to tell you further because everything in my mind now are all upside down .

Deep inside , I miss all of them . ALL OF THEM !

Do you still remember , everytime you saw a bruise on any part of my body , you always told me that there must be a ghost had bitten mine . I was so naive and innocent back then that I would cry and go to father and both of you would say " There's nothing to be afraid of , Meen . " Yes , you both who I miss the most in my life . We are so close yet so far ..

2011-07-01T13:33:00.000+08:00

Can't help myself but Taecyeon was so cute in this video !! *melts*

Remember to dream because it's gonna be a starry night

2011-06-30T17:12:00.002+08:00

# Alligator Sky - Owl City

Heyy people ! How are you doing ? Great ? Good .

So this morning , I had to give a sorta speech during assembly . Like seriously , I didn't feel nervous . Just felt like wanna pee so much . HAHA . Weird ? That was what Char Lie said . Screw this Science and Mathematics week . Because of it , I had to babble about Algebra and I was pretty sure that less than 50 % of the students were interested to listen . But heyy , if I think of it on the bright side , this tested me how to build up the courage to speak in front of so many human-being . HEHE .

Tomorrow , Mabel's turn :D

Talking about tomorrow , actually tomorrow is a " Hari Bicara Akademik " where teachers are gonna seize this chance enthusiastically inform our parents about how did we act in school and our achievement in academic . Yes , this practically terrifies some of the students so much . HEHE . Unfortunately , I'm not gonna attend school tomorrow since my parents are so busy that they can't even take a leave to take my report card despite of my results . I'm pretty sad because this year is the last year ever for me to take report card . Sigh .. Guess I have to wait another 20 years from now to attend report card day for my children . Lawlz . Weehoo~ Kalau anak ramai , gasak lah den ~ -.-

Had so much fun playing badminton with the girlfriends just now . I couldn't play it seriously since Izzah loved to crack a joke and made her funny face . Aii .. Guess what ? I'm gonna join Chi Yan to play football next week ! weehoo~ Tak sabar ouh ! :D

ehem ehem : Having a pretty face is attractive but having a beautiful personality is the main attraction . All praises be to Allah ♥

2011-06-29T01:02:00.002+08:00

I can't go to sleep thus I decided to blog but I got nothing to blog .

Ouh ouh ! Char Lie has already put on braces . I was so shocked but she's kinda cute though with the " gigi besi " . Hehe :) Guess after this gonna be my turn :/

That's why I'd rather stay in silence

2011-06-26T01:56:00.000+08:00

I'm offended of you bit by bit , day by day .
Even so I choose to keep it hope it fades .
Seems like it would love to stay .
If I tell you everything
I know , something big is absolutely gonna happen .
Yes , this is so annoying .
When are you gonna stop ?

Everything happens for a reason

2011-06-25T22:54:00.001+08:00

# Without you - 2PM .

Heyy people ! How was your day ? Awesome or vice versa ? Well mine as usual .

So , in this post , I would like to share something that might sound unusual for myself . Have you heard about K- Pop ? I'm so sure that some of you are one of the K- Pop fans . Yeah , I understand that K- Pop is like a trend for teenagers now . Everywhere people are talking about their songs and dramas . Well , I admit that their talent is somehow can't be denied . If I'm not mistaken , the first korean drama that hits Malaysian was Winter Sonata . I was only 7 or 8 year-old-girl back then . That drama was truly amazing !

Okay enough with that . Let's continue to my new interest , I guess .

At first , I wasn't that into K-Pop stuffs since I'm sorta lazy to search any stuffs about them . Then , that laziness has changed slowly last year. Hehe . Mabel , first , recommended me to see this drama titled " Boys Over Flowers " . Yeah , mesti ramai tahu kan ? She said this drama was very hot in KBS world . I saw this drama and started to get in love with it . The drama was very sweet and I don't think I need to decribe of it further kan ? . Yes , because of this drama , I already get addicted with Korean dramas . Since then , she willingly to lend me some of her awesome Korean DVD's . And people , better watch Cinderella's Stepsister ! This drama will show you a lot of moral values ! No regrets . Thanks a bunch , Mabel ♥

Elizabeth , omg ! This girl memang gila korean dramas rupanya . Haha . Every moment sitting with her , our topics will be about Korean dramas . Recently , she has suggested me a new korean drama , " My princess " . She's in love with the hero lah . Hehe . Too bad , I told her that maybe I'm gonna watch it either after trials or SPM . Because once I watch a drama , I would never budge from the laptop screen . I bet you can tell how addictive is a korean dramas to me now :D

Because of the boredom stride this evening , I went youtube-ing some of the Korean songs .

And now , my heart is pounding ! Haha .

I tried to listen to the songs from 2PM first . I don't know how to commend about it because I'm not good at K-POP yet . Mabel might laugh at me if I'm telling you this . See that guy at the left side ? Yeah , his name is Ok Taec-Yong . Known as Taecyong form 2PM . Yes , apparently , dah tersangkut lah pula . Hehe . Sorry Mabel . I denied so hard right before ? Hehe . He's the main rapper in the group . He speaks three languages weyh . English , Korean and Japanese . How awesome ! Well , as I said , I don't know how to commend further . He also acted in the drama that I've mentioned earlier " Cinderella's Stepsister " . He was so cute ! :D

Yes , dah addict ni . Gotta listen to their songs now ! Till then ! :D

ehem ehem : Mind and heart have to be united in order to create a wise action . All praises be to Allah .

Tanpa mu :)

2011-06-25T12:18:00.000+08:00

Okay people . That is it . I'm so in love with this one malay song babeyh !

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing

2011-06-23T16:35:00.001+08:00

# Breakeven - The Script

*that was my dashboard -.- lawlz .

So people , I don't really express my feelings through this blog because I sorta hate to type too much about sorrow thingy so I made it short cut . Well , nobody will really give a damn on it right ? . Thanks to tumblr for understanding my feelings and thoughts . Somehow , I wish the people that I addressed the reblog-post to , could read and understand it too but apparently it was only just a dream ~ Hehe lawlz -.-

ehem ehem : I fluent at sarcasm at times . Sorry .

Someday I'll be living in a big old city

2011-06-23T14:18:00.000+08:00

# Mean - Taylor Swift

Allah knows everything .

ehem ehem : He knows what is in your heart . Don't deny and never doubt Him for He always be with you in happiness or sorrow . Subhanallah .

There's a party on the rooftop top of the world

2011-06-21T16:02:00.000+08:00

# Tonight tonight - Hot Chelle Rae

Olla people ! Well as you guys had been informed few days ago , June 20th which was yesterday was my retirement day . Feewwhh , after 5 years ! All praises be to Allah all went smoothly and yes , I was the most happiest girl ever ! Hehe . I couldn't control myself anymore as I went damn super hyper even in the class . Lawlz . Yeah , I laughed and smiled too much yesterday that I couldn't even feel my jaw . So now , I'm internally and externally enjoying myself as a normal student again . HAHA . To be exact , we still have to duty only until the end of this week , but hell yeah , for me , duty no more :D * I was standing like a dumb-ouh-model during assembly just now :P*

I tried so hard to control my emotional part of me during photography session . It was so memorable :')

From left : Yen Ling , Shiao Yen , Nicole , Me :D

From left : Yen Ling , Kieshan , Su Wen , Char Lie , Me , Kushaal :D

Okay honestly , I feel like punching myself after seeing this photo . *drools*

Okay , those pictures above weren't from the photography session . Ya know , the camera loves us like we love it too :D Hehe . Thanks awesome retards , for the precious memoria ;)

ehem ehem : Polite in words with the ethical deeds showing the pure of the soul . All praises to Allah .

Do you feel what I feel too ?

2011-06-18T17:02:00.000+08:00

- I Love You by Avril Lavigne

Yay ! At last I've been given a chance again to blog ! Hehe . It has been awhile right ? Well now , I'm back :D A lot kind of things had happened in my life ya know and I really felt like wanna share some with you readers !

I would like to talk about exams first . Ish , my exam results for this time hates me much ! All my grades and marks dropped severely that I felt myself is so dumb . Like seriously , I've sacrificed my time to stare and absorb everything on the book that I've studied but end up , they weren't fruitful . How cool is that huhh ? I was so damn effing disappointed because I couldn't see any improvement in my performance and yes , it was so heart broken . The highest marks of all subjects were my Bahasa Melayu and Bahasa Inggeris , which means , I got the same marks for both papers but still , it doesn't satisfy myself ! However , I believe that Allah is trying to show me something . Hence , I would never give up and I take this as an opportunity to bring me to the dreams that I've been chasing for .

I feel so hyper . Be prepared !

I'm happily looking forward to June 20th 2011 ! My retirement day after a year being an Assistant Head Prefect 2010/2011 . Genuinely , I'm the happiest person of them all . If I got enough money , I would like to sponsor fireworks for that day . Gosh seriously , I wanna step down because I'm so tired . I've experienced a lot of sweets and sours throughout a year . No doubt , I'll keep them in my memory forever . All praises to Allah . Somehow , I feel like crying too . My school life is almost meeting the end of it . Buddies , thanks for the precious memories that we've created and shared together :')

* My heart was once broken badly .

They tell no lies

2011-05-27T21:01:00.000+08:00

The other half of my heart says that I miss you .

The other half of my heart says I don't .

I'm confused . Which one shall I follow ? .

The first other half , I suppose .

A grown up brother :')

2011-05-21T13:01:00.000+08:00

A special post for my the one and only Brother (:

Hello big bro ! you're turning FIFTEEN today so welcome to the teenage world ! Yea , I'm welcoming you so be proud of it . LOL . I know I know we had a lot of silly fights , serious fight , pillow fight , ahh what ever fight laa but for me , they thought me how to appreciate you more as my the only one brother . Thanx for being my karaoke partner in the room tho' . LOL . Let's go to the advice part from your pretty sister ! *coughcough :P

Heyy , you better study hard and smart on your studies . Start to aim and pursue your future okayh . You're the only sibling that Allah has given to me so , I want to see you grow up as a successful person one day . NO , EVERYDAY ! You always tell me that you want to be a pilot , so what the hell are you waiting for ? GO FOR IT BROTHA ! May Allah grant your wishes and prayers . Amin ~

Even if I'll get married one day , you are still my number one brother , boyfriend , best friend , enemy and so on . HAHA . I'm counting on you to take care of our parents if I'm no longer alive one day .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABDUL KHOLIQ MOKHTI B. AZLAN !

Bro , I love you !

lots of love from your sister ,
Yasmeen Najwa Bt. Azlan .

We don't wanna fall but we're trippin' in our hearts

2011-05-20T13:59:00.000+08:00

# Stuck In The Moment - Justin Bieber

Woots people ! How are ya ? Fine ? Good :)

So , today's Friday and I got exam for physics just now . Paper 2 not that really easy as well as paper 1 . Over all for me , paper 1 easier but it was so tricky :/ . Gurrhh . Waiting for this monday and yeah literally only 1 paper left ! Wee~ NO ! I'm not gonna include Sivik . Hehe . I realised something . The one that I studied yesterday from 9 till 11 something didn't come out at all ! Luckily , I woke up at 3 to continue studying . All praises be to Allah :) Hope I can pass this paper .

Remember I went to Justin Bieber's concert on April 21st before? Yeah , I was a bit frustrated because he didn't sing his new song which he collaborated with Rascal Flatts .

So , that was the video . Honestly , I was expecting more from this video :/ Don't you guys think it was a bit dull ? Ouh , Go listen to What hurts the most by Rascal Flatts . It's one of my favourite song :D

Will catch up with you guys soon . Adios :D

2011-05-18T19:02:00.000+08:00

so , tell me . who do you want to point your finger to ? if you could not see your own flaw?

I'm fine (:

2011-05-17T19:20:00.000+08:00

Woke up in the morning
Tried to smell the world
The sense was not the same
It has left yesterday

The world that I got to face
Was not the one anymore
New cycle new phase
I just really have to ignore

If I could lost my memory
I would erase away those with yours
If I still keep them in my entry
My life will be in a chaos

Thus , I swept everything and did not want to bring a thing
I headed straight and whisper my last good bye .

adorable , isn't she ?

2011-05-16T15:39:00.000+08:00

gossips , guys , studies , everything

those were all the things that we used to tell

books , cameras , pens , everything

those were all the things that we used to share

tears , laughter , giggles , everything

those were all the things that we used to bear

Time goes by

And we are all far apart

I'm might wanna smile

But there are something missing in my heart

Best friends . Yup , best friends ..

These are my other fives that's missing .

I wanna break the spell that you've created

2011-05-15T23:12:00.000+08:00

# Time is running out - Muse

I will always love and miss you . Good bye love .

it wasn't because I was afraid to tell you , I was afraid I would bother you

2011-05-15T14:46:00.000+08:00


source from tumblr

I scribbled a lot on my test pad and wrote some of words . Sadly , I've lost them -.-

We're smiling but we're close to tears

2011-05-15T11:46:00.000+08:00

# For The First Time -The Script

Heyy people . If you guys had tuned your tv channel on TV 3 , I bet you guys had seen this one ad specially for Teacher's Day . Where this cute little kid sang a song for his teacher . The kid's unfortunate because he got no eyes . Honestly , I cried when the first time I saw this kid on tv . If I could ever had the chance to see him , I would hug him and told him that he's so an adorable kid despite he's unable to see the world . May Allah bless him and give him an abundance of health and strength throughout his life . Amin ~ See , as we are the fortunate one , stop whining . Though things are not going well on our way sometimes , think on the bright side . May Allah bless all of us . Amin ~

Allah will always be there for you honey ;)

So , yesterday I texted one of my friends due to the pressure that clinging on me . A moment later , I felt so relieved . Thanx buddy for being there for me :)

Talk about the champion of English Premiere League , yeahh mann . Glory Glory Glory Man United . It was the 19th time for them ! Wee ~ But I hate the ending of the game . Nak show off pula dah . Haihh . Heard this news on the radio that Sir Fergie wanna continue with this team till the next season . OMG !

I long for your voice ,

To comfort me when I'm in sorrow ,

But my wrong doings ,

Keep you away from me .

Thanks for the old times that you've left ,

Because of em' , I couldn't get my mind off you ..

Nur Kasih fever ~

2011-05-14T16:44:00.000+08:00

A lot of stories to tell and to be shared with since I've been in silence .

Gurrrhhh , like seriously , I don't know where to start . OMG . Screw you lappy ! no no exam too . okayh fine .

Ujian Diagnostik SPM amat laa susah . Harap maklum . I'd rather jump off any building I tell ya ! They aren't asking us questions but they are like encouraging us to go die . Pfffftt . For the sake of my ambition , I'm working hard to not frustrate my self in the future .

I don't think I can score on my BIOLOGY paper since I've screwed it up whole badly . Yeah mann , by next week , all of the hard core subjects especially ADD MATH , will be haunting me day and night . So I guess , I would not get my beauty time of sleeping again . Berkorban apa saja~ Alaa , add math , die laa die laa -.-

Ouh ouh , for your information , I'm not a cheater or a backstabber or apa-apa saja yang se-time dengannya yea . So , please , not need laa to ask me doing some stuff that a nice girl shouldn't do . *cough cough . You know who you are~

In spite of exam is haunting , there's another thing too . I just couldn't figure it out when it's gonna be settled . Durhhh . My fault , suka tak ? Fine ..

Ouh wait ! Nur Kasih The Movie will be in the cinemas on May 19th ! I'm so looking forward to it and I can't wait to see it ! . But , who am I gonna see it with ? Will he the same guy that I've planned to see with ? Hmm ..

Because I tend to make mistakes without realizing them

2011-04-25T15:18:00.001+08:00

My heart beats faster than it used to
When the moment I pretend
I don't know anything
The flaws catch me even harder

Grab me into your embrace
Kiss me on my forehead
Please comfort me
And tell me everything's going fine ..

'cause your number one on my wish list

2011-04-10T18:06:00.000+08:00

# Wish list - The Ready Set

My tuition teacher suddenly remind us about SPM . Intai Char Lie punya blog , eleyh show off dia punya Add math and math marks laa pula . Omg , she memang pro laa , can't deny already . My heart pumps the blood even more faster now . It's the climb~ -.-

Bought Mcflurry for myself just now . Yeah , I was a bit stress so I suppose mcflurry can help . Okay , I admit I ate the mcflurry as if there's no tomorrow . Comm'on peeps , I was hungry to death since I didn't take breakfast then straight away off to tuition after tuition went to The Mall searching for my mum's stuff then only brunch ! . Pergghh , my stomach sempat tempah bilik untuk karaoke ya know . Haha craps .

I was indecisive about ~~something~~ yesterday so , I couldn't decide properly because I was so afraid I will regret later . I'm so not ready full stop exclamation markssss Blalalalala~

Ouh wait , guess this will be the last post for this week . For this week jea kan . As if anyone will ever bother . lol . Ouh , please pray the best for me in SPM kayh ! I want to grab all the A's enthusiastically ! Till next week then ! Adios :D

* My heart like been trampled , if you feel it too , I shall be glee .

a million miles away a message to the main

2011-04-09T16:47:00.001+08:00

# Written in the stars - Tinie Tempah

I was amazed . Seriously amazed to the max . Haha . Diam Char Lie , jangan na kembang lebih2 , nanti you burst pula :P . Okay , this was how it goes .. I was standing next to Yen Ling during assembly just now . I had no idea why I felt like wanna look at the canteen . Suddenly , I saw a girl wearing baju kurung in blue colour . I tried to figure out who was the person because I thought she might be from the primary school . It got more confusing when Char Nie sat beside her . Sah nampak sangat aku ni macam ~~kepochi~~ kan -.- I got fed up then ask Yen Ling ..

Me : Yen Ling , who is that haa ? in the canteen there ..
Yen Ling : Ouh , that's Char Lie laa . She got math competition later .

Quickly headed to the canteen and hugged her . OMG , she was so pretty in baju kurung and look a bit like a malay . Wait , she kept complaining that she couldn't tahan anymore because panas. But still , she's pretty. Hehe . Dah dah , habis meletup budak ni nanti LOL :D

Study Physics on Saturday in the lab ? Acceptable haa ? Yeah , that was what we did just now but fun though . There were about less than 20 people who actually came and it was a bit peaceful . Ouh yeah , I just found out that Matthew can actually sing and his voice nice gila ! Jealous ni~

Ouh , I haven't mention about my handball competition right ? Yeah , we only managed to the quarter finals only but still should be thankful . It wasn't easy to go until that stage . But for the boys , both under - 18 and 15 won the third place in Zon Bangsar . Congratulations guys ! I bet next year all of them can go further .

Please , I don't want it to be true . If it really is , I won't and will never have the urge to face you anymore . For you know , yourself has been given a lot of chance !

or maybe it is just me feel the wrong way

2011-04-09T16:47:00.000+08:00

Am I missing the wrong person ? Tell me , I am not .

2011-04-09T16:42:00.000+08:00

I wonder if I were on the verge of tears ,

Would you be there to bear them ?

they don't like my jeans they don't get my hair

2011-04-03T11:10:00.001+08:00

Fucking Perfect - Pink

p/s : no , I didn't mean to use vulgar word , but it is the real name of the song itself .

Heyy little readers . I know I've been dead since a week ago . I'm not a wretch though . Still , I'm here with a million effort to update my blog .

Things that had have revolved around are getting harder for me to go through . Deep inside I'm so sure , with prayers and patience , I'll be fine :) right ? It ain't the end of the world ouh com'on :D

Mabel , you do love to spam my chatbox , don't you ? Haha . Itu laa , suruh buat facebook tak mahu . Gedik punya minat :D Hehe .Yes , I'm now have become super addicted to Korean dramas . Mabel sayang , saya sudah tersangkut , siapa mahu tolong ? Aigo ..

My fingers would love to dance on the keyboard . Woow ! I got a lot of stories to share but unfortunately , I can't tell them in order . Or else , everything will get messed up and all of you will pening kepala . Ouh ouh , my boyfie had finally created a blog for himself ! Give him a big applause people :) LOL.

Diagnostic exam in a month to go , so yeah I have to seriously focus on my studies and that's the reason I've decided to online rarely . I wanna achieve higher grade than before . That's my aim right now .

We shall meet up some time later . I got to go now . Gurrhh bloggie , I'll be missing you so much !

There are times when they approach you just to fulfill their desire . When the times you are alone in the middle of a wide ocean and you ought to have someone to stay right next to you , they will just turn their back to you and go away and leave you pathetically . Don't waste your precious time to deal your life with this particular people . And yes , I'm saying this based on my experience .

leaping from the bottom to the highest one than you could ever imagine

2011-03-25T16:45:00.000+08:00

Hell-O peeps . Heyy . Hye .

I felt so depressed and yes , felt like kicking or punching something . Hah , I'm not stupid to hurt myself . I'm bored and tired of thinking ways to get out from the "box" that I've been staying in . I've set my decision and kinda proud of myself . Bluweeekkkss . I'm not gonna let people look down upon me . So , IN YOUR FACE !

I was in a total bad mood and it isn't easy for me to cool down . Just need some space and that's enough . Clicked on YouTube and listened to the songs , sang along like half-demented . Yeah mann , I'm back to normal after I cried my heart out when came across to this song .

I tell ya , memang tak ada kena mengena but when I abruptly reminisced the moment she said ~~I'm useless~~ , I couldn't hold the tears back . To I-don't-even-think-you-know-this-blog , I'm moving on and you are gonna lick back your words after seeing me succeed . I'm grabbing the biggest challenge . Your game which I'm dealing with now .

Yeah people , tomorrow is Larian Saujana or crossed-country . And guess what ? I'm gonna run even though I know I won't get any medal . HAHA . Till then :D

even they know , they don't deserve to be on the position

2011-03-24T19:14:00.000+08:00

I am standing up straight

Attempt not to fall down

But deeply I know

There must someone who attempts

To bring me down to the lowest place .

I didn't talk much because I didn't have the mood to do so . I didn't go hyper like I used to because my physical and heart are aching . I guess , my silence is doing the best to speak .

Sorry peeps . I'm off .

she's 10 . I'm 9 !

2011-03-23T21:37:00.001+08:00

Malam tadi mimpi Kak Nana senyum lebar muka berseri-seri . Told that to some of my friends and the said " mimpi jea kott . " So , I thought the same thing too and let it be .

Have to walk 4.5 km just to know where are the checkpoints gonna be on this Saturday . I felt like I was visiting a zoo since I was excited to know what type of dogs in each houses . With the help from Char Lie , I think I've managed to know a bit about dogs . Yeah , me and Char Lie gelabah jea jalan paling depan . Right Char Lie ? You better admit it ! *evil grins . While was walking , came this guy or a junior to be exact , he asked me to " date " him for only 5 minutes . Dia cabar aku cakap complete in Bahasa Melayu dengan dia . Apa lagi , I grabbed the challenge and yeahh me , I've failed -.-' . Daayyyuummm . Marianne was keeping laughing and she said I sounded funny . Weyh , aku kalah dengan budak tingkatan 1 baii . Haihh . Aku mana laa pandai bahasa baku ni -.-'

Okay okay . Walked back to school and headed to the canteen and bought soya drink . Thirsty like what mann -.-' . Then , went to Dewan Rafflesia and yes I was waiting the one and only Kak Nana . Kak Syaza arrived a bit late and I didn't get the chance to see her much . I told the dream that I dreamt to Kak Nana and she almost slap me . HAHA . Deyy , orang nervous tahap gaban na mam , kau pergi bagitahu benda ta masuk akal . Memang kena laa kan -.- ' .

The best part , when the teacher pasted the name list of people whom get STRAIGHT A'S ! Me and Athirah kepochi pergi tengok then both of us cried . We saw Kak Nana cried and jumped and cried and jumped and okay I'm lazy to repeat the same thing . Hehe . Her name was on the list . 10 A's people , 10 . Jap , biar aku besar kan font berikut . 10 . Banyak betul A yang dia sapu . Perut aku pun dah kecut and yes , I ran away and hid myself in the Discipline Room and again , cried -.- ' . People , my turn is next year . My gizzard almost burst . Almost burst .

Dah dah , tak nak cakap banyak . Meleleh air mata aku nanti , prince aku bukannya ada kat rumah aku untuk tolong wipe kan . Hehe .

Handball ? Urghh . I don't know how to say and what to say . I couldn't see all of us playing as one team . Only 12 people will be selected to represent school but now we have 15 all of us . Meaning there will be 3 people who aren't gonna represent school . Aku ada peluang kea ?

school liddat :D

2011-03-21T17:58:00.000+08:00


true that :)

Hey peeps . Sekolah macam mana ? Okay ? Good . Mine was as usual , I guess . But not until I met my boyfie . It has been awhile since we met so literally I am sooooo happy :D . Yup , I am .

That " Friday " song are already stuck in my head right now ! Sengal tahu -.- . Kushaal pun tak suka lagu tu . Macam hampeh right ? But can't hate her too the max anyway , everyone has their own flaw right so we should have think wisely before judging . Marlina gonna hate me since I've been singing that song almost throughout the day . Don't blame me dude . I hate myself as well when I was singing the song . Gurrhhh .

HARI PENYEMAKAN SLIP KEMASUKAN SPM is gonna be held tomorrow . Can see right ? If you couldn't , sorry , blogspot didn't provide any size of the font that is bigger than the above . -.- Apa lagi , tunjukkan laa jari telunjuk anda pada blogspot . Hehe :) Honestly , when teacher announced it during assembly , I was like " Alamak , SPM ! " People , I'm an SPM candidate of 2011 ! Time passes by so fast haa ?

* rojak kan two languages . I won't create another account . Sorry . :)

Short journey

2011-03-20T13:26:00.001+08:00

Heyy hoe peeps :) A lot of things that I wanna share with you guys . Since I'm so free now and neglecting my homeworks , yeah , my fingers are ready to dance on the keyboard :D

First , chemy J was walking towards I don't-know-where . Then , it suddenly stop without making any noise . I was just observing what it's gonna do next . It doesn't move at all ! Panic feeling kicked in so I rushed to see what might have happened .


It cuddled itself and slept . Tengah - tengah jalan derr =='

Quickly took its photograph and laughed to myself . My kitten had made my day before there were these people ruined it . Super Juniors , that's what my brother call all of my kittens :D

To be honest , I didn't even touch my homeworks except for mathematics . I just don't have the feeling to do . I have no idea why . Urghh~ So what I did during holiday was just watching tv and finish my BOF drama :) ouh Kim Bum~ cute na mati weyhh .. I went online and usually I could see people update their status about their feelings towards something or else . I was kinda proud DZ , my class monitor . I guess he has spent his holiday wisely . This was his status ..

" Why are we encouraged to take more carbohydrate in the food pyramid of our science syllabus? They encourage us to take more glucose that is energy, so that we can work more and get fit in a way. The more C6H12O6, the more work you can do. "

Yeah , Mabel , you should now this . Your boss always post this type of thing on our group wall . Hehe . I think myself should emulate him because I always post music video on the wall . Blalalala~ Imma music enthusiast , remember ? :)


So , this is my brother's pose :P

I know I'm lame . So , shattapp :D

Before off to downtown yesterday , my brother whom from surau , ran to me and said there was a place behind the surau that could be used to make our experiment about " Hikamoji light gravity " . Quickly put on my shawl and took my baby-D and there I go~

Seriously , we are still new and had just discovered this thing about a month ago . So , those photo above has a lot of flaws . Yeah , we are not photographer anyway :) To make this technique succeed , it requires a high patient level .It takes about 15 or more than 30 minutes to capture the perfect one .

It was the first time I stepped to a place called downtown . Honestly , I prefer that place then Mid Valley . Hehe . The goods are affordable and worth your money . That was just my opinion laa but I will shop at Mid Valley kayh :) I didn't take the photo of myself here because I was in a bad mood . Yeah , they ruined my mood to shop =.= '' Would not gonna tell you here . Sakit hati weyh T____T Blah blah blah , I asked my parents and my bro to stay in the car or where ever they want . I searched for my stuffs alone and yeah , I was damn effing satisfied ! I bought a lot of shawls and a jersey for my lovey :) Hope he'll like it !

Got a message on facebook . She suggested me to create another blog and conduct it in Bahasa Melayu . Hmm .. I think I don't have to create another one right ? Rojak-rojak kan jea laaa :D

Fewhh , I'm done ! hehe :) thanks for spending your time to read ♥

R to the B

2011-03-17T14:23:00.000+08:00

Another post for today huh ?

Peeps , I was on tumblr just now , and I noticed that this few days , the people on tumblr keep posting about Rebecca Black . It's kinda irritating because they condemned this girl severely . Therefore , the time that I should spending on homework , I've used it to find out about her .

Literally saying , she's kinda ~~funny~~ .

I'm not gonna post her video . Gurrhh . Click here laaaaaaaaa .

taylor swift appeared in my dreams

2011-03-17T09:50:00.000+08:00

So this is me blogging before off to clinic . Yeahh mann . I met this one girl from tumblr and as far as I'm concern she's a Philippians . Hers kinda awesome because almost all of her post , she does by herself . Unlike me , ~~reblog-tard~~ :P . Watta heck , as if I care . LOL -.-

I think in the next few hours , myself will get rotten .I've been staying at home without going out anywhere like 4 days in a row . Cool huh ? ~~Boleh laa ada sikit ciri-ciri housewife antarabangsa kan .~~ My foot antarabangsa -.- Gurrhhh . Ouh people , I need to go somewhere . Maybe for a movie or any challenging activities ? . Yeah right -.- I haven't touch any of my homeworks yet . I got a pile and a pile and a pile of them on my desk . I've sorted them however , ~~harapan tinggal papan~~ .

and i mean it

2011-03-16T15:46:00.000+08:00

my heart knows what it ought to do

to LOVE and APPRECIATE you .

umpalumpa :D

2011-03-16T10:41:00.000+08:00

Hope Mabel are back from Singapore . Damn , miss her like even a heart can't tell . It was because we've spent lessen time each other since exam started . Wait , I think before exam started . Mabel , just so you know , I'm enjoying BOF throughout this holiday (: . We go GAGA over it okayh ?


* Shaattappp . I took this picture from google kayh :D

Read Char Lie's makes me pondering about the future . Frankly , my gizzard will be shaking every time I think about it . Nerhh Yasmeen , wake up from your dream and live it . Went through Su Wen's , she's being an excited electrons . HAHA . Don't really get what does she mean but glad she's happy (: Chi Yan , gurrhh , I miss you buddy . I miss everyone . Okay I better stop or else , Chi Yan will say , " emotional you " :P

I think Imma reblog-tard from tumblr . I reblogged from here and there yet , I don't blog anything . Gurhh , I prefer blogspot to blog stuffs . So , miss tumblr , you're just a place for me to reblog stuffs that depicts my mode . Deal ? GOOD (:

eyes

2011-03-15T21:26:00.000+08:00


*credit to my tumblr blaarhhkk :P

I was doing add math just now I then decided to stop since my eyes getting sick with numbers . Yeah . See the photo above ? They had such pretty eyes , hadn't they ? . They were just cartoons though . Painting , to be exact but a pair of eyes that they've been given were too pretty . After all , let us be grateful of what have been given from Him . It is not the outside but the inside that counts .

bored

2011-03-15T11:33:00.000+08:00

woke up in the morning , headed to the living room and played with my kittens . I tell ya , my 4 new born kittens love to make so much noise . They meow-ed like every minutes . Somehow , they are a bit irritates me in spite of I love them deeply . Bathe then straight went online .

Today is Tuesday . The second day of school holiday . Yeah , homework sudah buat kea cik Yasmeen ? Belum . Bagus amat . HAHA . I don't mean to procrastinate everything but I don't have the urge to do it . Yeah . The urge that I need now .

Dear pakcik handsome , saya rindu awak . Sigh . Buddies , you guys as well :(

imma music enthusiast :)

2011-03-13T13:13:00.003+08:00

I bet almost all of you already know that I love to sing , although my voice could crack a mirror into pieces . HAHA . See , they are just commoners . I mean , not really because they are the singers only form you tube .

I didn't set it to autoplay so you know right what you've got to do ? HAHA :D enjoy !

i'm sorry

2011-03-13T12:59:00.000+08:00

I'm trying to act cool but seems like I can't . They said , let you cool down and wait until you come back and forgive me . I said , I can't wait for that moment because I feel so bad after what I have done to you . I did a silly mistakes and I can't be passive until you are willing to forgive me . I have tried but you reluctant . I knew it was my fault . You know , I miss every single moments we spent time together sharing our stories and experiences . I miss your giggles and I don't give a damn if people think it in a wrong way . It is because you are my best buddy . I miss your intractability in order to prove that you are right . You know who you are , from the deep core of my heart , buddy , I miss you :(

if that's the only way you've chosen

2011-03-12T15:00:00.000+08:00

It has been awhile I guess . I was sort of busy to even catch a glimpse on my blog . So , I've left it mercilessly . School holidays has just started but for me , it's just the same since we've been given out a pile of homeworks . Awesome yet torturing . I mean , holidays are the only days that we've gotta spend our time more with the love ones and pamper ourselves . Nerrhh , I don't really wanna argue about it . Be optimistic , homeworks are the ladder of success . Amin~ .

I'm sure , everybody now have been aware with the massive hit in Japan . Let's pray for the souls in need . I admit , my tears were rolling down on my cheek when I saw the news on the television and newspapers . The Almighty are conveying us His power , what else we want to deny ?

the smile of you .

2011-03-07T17:47:00.000+08:00

Had a two-day-prefects' motivation camp and I tell ya , it was superb and splendid ! We've learned of to be one team and a family . I could see now everyone has combined together to work as one . Ouh how I wished I could tell ya every single things happened and share them . I'm so glad that everybody had enjoyed themselves with our performance . I mean the AJK's performance . " Snow White , Sorta .. " Credit to Su Wen as the scriptwriter . She've done a great job ! Yeah , she've managed to make our PK HEM laughed hillariously . It was such a great pleasure to work together with all of you ! THANK YOU ♥ do not ask who was the " snow white " . Haizz , my juniors are calling me that name now -.-

I've blurted out something that I shouldn't to . My day at the first place was so shining and I was the one who've made it dull or maybe kinda a bit wretch . Buddy , you know who you are . I'm so sorry . Really sorry ! Are there any other ways for me to atone my mistakes ? I love you buddy . Sorry .

fatigueness

2011-03-04T17:48:00.000+08:00

I'm so stressed out right now . Really really stressed out . First , because of add math . I tell ya , I hate that single subject . Gurrhh . It will always manage to bring me down and ruin my day as well .

Will be spending my weekend at school . I have to attend ~~I mean all the prefects have to attend~~ the Motivational Camp . All the AJK's members are working hard for our closing ceremony on Sunday . As usual , Shye Wei would be the most hardworking one . Pity somehow .

Ya know what ? I'm so exhausted . Really really exhausted . Darn ..

I see there is no way to go

It is too thick for me to get through

They said it would be easier if there are two

I know that would be the only you

2011-03-01T21:27:00.000+08:00

I love you so much and I really mean it from the deep core of my heart . I don't give an effing damn even though you are one year younger than me . Age does not matter for me . I will never let you go until death do part . I will try me best to keep our relationship until forever and I'm on my words . You're the only one that I've saved an empty place just for you to fulfill it . I really meant it . I only need you and there are no other guys that could ever replace you . Because I want you . Urgh . Words can't express how much I need and love you . Awak , you're the one and only one . Saya sayang awak . Saya na sampai bila-bila .

2011-03-01T15:45:00.000+08:00

promises .

are somehow terrifies me in the dark

I can't see any lights at the end

I can't feel any hands hold me tight

I can't hear any voices comforts me up

I startled .

I mused .

Pretty words are meant to be pretty words .

They've been set to be heard .

If they are really been granted

Find a better place for them to shelter .

Decided .

If you never meant them from your heart

Stay away from me for I will be torn apart

Keep your broken words to yourself

So you can feel the pain inside out .

B.O.F much !

2011-03-01T14:49:00.000+08:00

Boys Over Flower *winks ouh , can you see the cutest there ? he's Kim Bum :)

At last ! I don't have to do countdown anymore ! I already received my official birthday present from Mabel and Nicole . Yeah , I screamed and jumped ~~not really all around~~ ~~or else people might think I'm insane~~ because I was too happy. They really made it comes true . I seriously can't express my gratitude by words . Buddies , thank you so much ! I mean a billion much !

School day wasn't that bad although half of the class made a self declared holiday . Yeah . I attended because I wanna get the full attendance . It might sounds lame but I'm enjoying my last year of school life . Much . HEHE . Chit Chat-ed with Chi Yan since Mabel was doing chinese paper . We talked about a lot of stuffs and I wasn't bored at all . I accidentally called Becca rubbish but I honestly didn't do it on purpose because I wanted to ask her to pick up the rubbish on the floor . Something that wasn't right came out from my mouth . Sorry .

Okay , ya know what ? My hair grows too long already . Should I get a hair cut ?

Life becomes more wonderful if they really cherish and accept you no matter who you are . Life is wonderful when you know you are surrounded with people whom your call friends . Life is more wonderful if they never learn how to betray or back stab you or indirectly lied to you .If there are honesty , sincerity in everything , I believe , God will grants the prayers to make your life go smoothly and fine .

T O A O H

2011-02-27T09:47:00.000+08:00

I L Y S M N M W ♥

I L Y M T Y K L A

I'm still figuring out what are the L and A .. Terima Kasih awak :)

the last words .

2011-02-25T22:41:00.001+08:00

There is one thing I seriously would like to do . I don't wanna get stuck in the end . I don't wanna feel guilty every moment I look at her face . I don't want to be blamed over something that I never done . I don't want to get accused by people over something you're gonna do . Honestly , I've had enough of you . I've repeated the same thing over and over again but you still keep doing it . I don't necessitate anything from you . Do you know what does friendship actually really means ? Please , open up a dictionary and find the meaning . It will help you more . Before things getting worse , I've made up my mind . Because of you , I had to argue with mine and I bet , you don't want to know how much it hurts me when he was away . So , I'm decisive with my decision . I shall OMIT you from mine . OMIT and goodbye . If this will hurt you , better hold it back and think about the people around you whom will get hurt with your behavior .

won't stop

2011-02-25T17:43:00.001+08:00

2 papers to go and will be setting myself free from any intervention test ! WAIT , results =.='

Kinda preparing for diagnostic test on May . Have to cover all form 4 subjects . No , it ain't a burden because this is for the sake of my future and I seriously don't really mind about it . I would like to suggest to my buddies to form a study group but I'm afraid if they will give a negative response . I should try to ask them right ? Since I don't take any tuition classes , I'm fully depending on all the exercise books that Kak Nana gave to me . I appreciate her effort to see me succeed in SPM . " if you need any help , you can ask me lah . I didn't choose a quitter for my position right " and that was Kak Nana's :) Ouh , I did try to follow her blog but I couldn't fine the "follow" sign . She hides it , I suppose . So I have to randomly check out her blog . Kak Nana , I adore your second language :)

That kinda feeling has kicking in . I miss you honey . like seriously !

My stomach is begging for food but I don't feel like eating now . Ouh , when I was talking to Kushaal , Chi Yan and Mathu on the way to the canteen , I had realised that I didn't bring my wallet along but chemistry book instead . I was lazy to head back to the class and end up , revised chemistry at the canteen . Chi Yan had offered me to lend her money , but I didn't feel like eating anymore . Thanx anyway buddy :)

nothing's gonna change that

2011-02-24T16:11:00.000+08:00

4 papers to go and I can't wait to jump with joy ! Bio was so-so okay . I'm afraid to comment much ya know . Tomorrow , will be having 2 papers of paper 3 . Bio and chemy . Hope I won't get stuck at any questions .

Shye Wei complained that she is already getting bored with exam . Me too , and I'm sure all of the form 5 does right ? . Two weeks of having exam is like having no life at all . Stare at the book and absorb everything into the mind . Ouh yeah , Shye Wei is gonna persuade her parents to get her a pair of contact lens ! Seems like I've managed to influence her . Wee~~

Gonna catch a nap ! Not really had a long day but still tired ! Chiao~~

* Awak , terima kasih ♥ . iloveyouwaymorethanyoudo :)

d i l e m m a

2011-02-23T15:08:00.002+08:00

Crying over add maths is not worth it ! ~~Shit~~ , I cried over it every time I went out from the class after add maths' test . Add math doesn't love me and appreciate me the way I do as in return . The best thing is , I will get a hug from Izzah every moments after add maths' . HEHE . Dude , I'm straight laa !

Actually , I'm planning something but I haven't make up my mind yet . Because I know , if I carry on , I will be regret forever ! If I just let the plan fades , it's either I'll be happier or remain the same . Seriously , I'm in a prefect dilemma .

I'm not in a good mood so don't expect a smile from me . Ya know , joining ERT should be the last decision when it comes to Cik Margaret as the guru penasihat . Bayangkan laa , kat rumah aku goreng omelet senang jea . Bila dengan dia terseksa na mampus derr . Hadoyy~

I was expecting for a little brother or sister . Apparently , I should stop giving a false hope to myself .

Perjuanganku sinarnya membelah samudera ..

hati

2011-02-22T20:03:00.001+08:00

Di manakah semua jawapan yang aku ingini ?
Mengapakah semuanya harus tersembunyi ?
Adakah aku perlu mencari ?
Bagaimana pula bila kau tiada di sisi ?
Aku mati .

I got the idea of that lines when I was scribbling during history paper 1 . Tomorrow , let's move on to the next stage of the battle . Add Math ! :)

gray troubles

2011-02-21T14:18:00.002+08:00

Pendidikan Islam made me smile and I could feel relieve since it was half-half easy .Plus , I didn't fall asleep during answering the questions . Why ? HAHA .

I finished studying around 11 . Closed the book , packed stuffs , off to bed . Nerrhh , I was trying hardly to sleep . I couldn't ! I was tired and seriously needed a must-rest but my eyes doesn't cooperate . Bad huh ? . Oppss , I did recite prayer before off to bed but still .. Haishh , I went downstairs to log in facebook . Shoot ! I thought I've forgotten the password but heyy , I go online everyday and it is so absurd if I couldn't remember it all of a sudden . Frustrated and went back to the room .

Since my eyes were still fresh , I performed " solat sunat " with the hope I could have my rest after that . I was wrong . What did I do was , staring at the ceiling in a dark room , wandering about my future and reminiscing memories . I cried over some memories . HEHE .

I think I fell asleep around 5 a.m .. 45 minutes is not ENOUGH for me ! Woke up at 5.45 a.m.. I forced me eyes to open as widely as they can . What has happen to me now ? Please , tomorrow will be having sejarah and I don't wanna sleep late again .

Note to I-don't-know-who-are-you . Get a life , will ya ? Ya know , my time is too precious and not worth to search who you are and have a fight with ya . Kau cakap aku bitch plus slut ? HAHAHA . Kasihan .. Pergi baiki english kau tu . Setakat mencarut jea pandai , ta payah laa weyh . Bahasa sedemikian tidak digalakkan dalam paper english 1119 derr .

Awak , saya rindu kita .

ya know how does sour tastes ?

2011-02-20T10:18:00.000+08:00

It's still early in the morning and I've decided to revise Agama later . HEHE . Yasmeen is showing a bad example here .

I'm kinda not really active on facebook recently . Thanx to my twitter . It's not that I've ditched facebook , due to some reasons , I have to put myself away from it . Ya know ? blablabla~

Talking about my twitter , I'm still sucks at it . Ya know , it needs time to make yourself used to something new . Heh , it will be easy , I guess ;) If you think that I'm lame just because of I'm kinda outdated , go ahead .

Got this from ohteenquotes - If you don't understand my silence , how will you understand my words ?

Yea , kinda addressed it to someone .

it's yellow

2011-02-19T13:01:00.001+08:00

What goes up must come down .

This is a norm situation which every one of us will get through . Don't be afraid but just be ready .

Actually , I just came back from koko . And yeah , I'm tired indeed . Kawad activity was so fun today ! HAHA . Just imagine when Andrew became our commander . I couldn't be serious . That is the only problem that I have . It was more severe when I was standing next to Becca . So ? HAHA .

Mabel ! She came at last after two days she was staying at home , sick . Mabel , you better lessen drink lemonade kayh ! Maybe it is just still on the first stage . Prevention is better than cure :)

I went to check out billboard top songs . Lady Gaga has ~~strike down~~ Bruno Mars . Finally~ HAHA . Never mind Bruno , Grenade still awesome anyway ..

the further you are from my sight , the closer you are to my heart

where it has to be

2011-02-18T13:14:00.002+08:00

Hello friday :)

I don't know how many days I didn't update this blog . Due to the intervention and I'm not gonna blame that .

Guess , I've been kinda left out huh ? Saw many stories updates on my dashboard by the bloggers . They got so many ample time to make their blog alive and somehow , I am envying them .

I tuned on to Ein's blog . There was a photo of her late father . Ein , if I were in your shoes , I don't think I'm still here to survive my life without a father . Al- Fatihah~

We've completed 4 subjects now which means , 8 papers are down and there are another 12 papers to go . Gambate ! :)

I miss you and I guess , that's the least that I can do instead of saying sorry for thousands time .

2011-02-15T22:17:00.001+08:00

DAH PUAS MENYEKSA ORANG ?

2011-02-13T15:34:00.000+08:00

ONLY ALLAH KNOWS WHAT IS IN MY HEART RIGHT NOW ..

Patience is Virtue

SEVENTEEN

2011-02-11T16:21:00.002+08:00

I'M OFFICIALLY SEVENTEEN :)

Woke up in the morning , felt so thankful because still given the chance to get through another stage of life . All praises to Allah :)

I was about to thumb in then somebody closed my eyes from the back ! I was so frighten . HAHA . She was Mabel , the first person who wished me at school :) I love you buddy ! Got the tightest hug form Char Lie . Almost barely breathing . HAHA . As usual , got teased by friends . LALALA~ A perfect day for Marianne to bully me . Botox and stuffs yeah ..

Went to Bilik Bahasa for the first period to do oral . I was wrong because we didn't have enough time to complete mine . It's okay :) Saw Dao Zhung's group presentation and yeah they were awesome ! I DIDN'T EXPECT THE LAST SLOT OF THE SLIDE SHOW !!! They put a photo of me and KIM BUM OMG ! I thought Nicole were referring the special part to a quiz session or anything else . It was the birthday slide show for me !

I was burst into tears and went so speechless . It was so unexpected ! Deep down in my heart , I LOVE YOU 5 BELIAN ! The best SURPRISE EVER !

But , there was one thing I a bit regret :( I didn't get the chance to see Shahirul Amir . Seriously miss him so much . Sigh ..

I LOVE EACH ONE OF YOU ! THANK YOU BUDDIES !

evanescence

2011-02-10T21:01:00.004+08:00

As I was posting up this post , there were fireworks outside of mine . CNY haven't over yet ? wow~

I forgot to bring this thing up in the previous post . About fizi . It's officially lost now :( I hope it'll find a new-owner-maybe better than me . I miss it very hell much ! It's the cutest kitten I've ever had . It's kinda unique because it's eyes colour are not the same . Blue on the right while brown on the left . Fizi , I'm so sorry ..

It's not that I abhor my new add math teacher . I just can't get on her flow . I'm trying hard now for the sake of my future ! Ouh yeah , Chi Yan and Char Lie just came back from their holiday . I miss them and seriously wanna see them altogether tomorrow . It's on my wish list and hope it'll be granted , InsyaAllah :)

"when you're up,your friends know who you are, when you're down,you know who your friends are"

I got that from one of my friend's status on facebook . This is world . A reality ! Face that ! HAHA . No , I am not sad because this a test from Him .

annoyed

2011-02-10T16:52:00.002+08:00

It's like updating blog is a thing that I must do everyday . ALTHOUGH , intervention is seriously coming soon . As long as I know how to divide the time systematically , I'll be okay . *i think

Finally , HAHA . I miss you Shahirul Amir :(

I'm kinda half-half looking forward to tomorrow . Yeah , I'm not getting older . I'm just turning 17 . Itu jea . HAHA . Yet , Marianne , I don't know what is wrong with . She has been doing the countdown since Monday and keep reminding me day by day . HOHO .

Will stop here I think .

ain't lame

2011-02-09T16:32:00.003+08:00

Today , Izzah is officially seventeen . hehe :)

I miss fizi badly :( It has been two days since it's away from home . I know I got bobby and chemy but I still need fizi too ! My bad for not taking care of fizi properly .

I AM NOT A QUITTER NOR A LOSER !

Cikgu Fida , Kak Nana and Carmen had done something that I have to appreciate . Yeah , I do . Their advices , I will stick them right in my heart and would never toss them away . Touched ? of course ! I cried when I read their comments as well :')

What do you get when you've filled your heart with hatred ?

Found something irritating today but I just ignored it . I mean , why do I have to act as if I don't know anything . It's definitely out of my gesture .

Will be kicking first intervention's butt soon ! :D

2011-02-01T17:55:00.003+08:00

would you ever heal the scar that you've left ?
because myself doesn't deserve for it .

February has finally arrived :) YAY ! 10 months from now , SPM^_^

I have to become more stronger now to overcome the challenges given . Should have cry lesser and be a bit loud even more . I don't wanna be so stressful for the sake of SPM .

AND , I shall bring my camera next time no matter where ever I go . There are loads of things I wanna randomly capture . Went to KL to find spikes shoe * i don't know whether I've spelled it right for Aliq . He was a bit picky though . HAHA .

The conversation between my cousin and I last night was a bit absurd .

Ca : Apahal muka kau dah lain ni ?
Me : Lain apa ? gambar aku ta pakai specs kot .
Ca : Ah , bukan . Apasal macam cengkung ? takan sebab SPM .
Me : Mengarut derr .. Aku tengok tembam jea ..
Ca : Jangan tipu aku , kau ada masalah lain kan ?
Me : Tape laa , aku malas laa na fikir . Diam jea laa ..
Ca : Kau luahkan laa kat sape sape doe .. Apa kau ni ..
Me : Aku okay jea , happy doe Jangan risau laaaaaaaaaaa :P

Fuh~ It's been raining in the "inside" . I got no any interesting story to post . Chiao~

I am not what you think

2011-01-31T11:47:00.002+08:00

I am not being lazy . It just that I got no mood to finish up my homework faster . I've set my mind to complete everything as soon as possible so that I can revise my form 4's . Apparently , I am not doing anything yet .

It has been two days non-stop raining . In another side of mine said that God is trying to convey something in everything . I felt so appeased as I saw each drops fell onto the ground . After all that had revolves around lately , I've learned another lesson of life . All praises to Allah :)

"even there's a vulture on your shoulder , bury it perfectly ."

It is so freezing cold now until I have to wear my sweater . Let's pray I won't fall ill because first intervention is coming soon . I am so striving hard for it ! 5 Belian , I miss all of you already except that one fella, he is not in my list . I've posted it on our group's wall just now . Homework jangan lupa buat yea kawan-kawan :)

I want things between us back to normal . I don't wanna argue anymore . I'll change . You know where I've placed you in my heart ..

I've asked myself , who am I most devoted to ?
I answered , I am devoted to Allah S.W.T ..

am not stumbling down

2011-01-30T12:42:00.003+08:00

When the rain drops , they soothes me really well

Another 30th has come ! All praises to Allah :) Encik Ghani has inspired me to do well in Add Math . Terima Kasih cikgu . I suddenly miss Puan Thamarai words "terbalik tertonggak" . HAHA . Is there any such word as tertonggak ? I wanna search for the meaning later ..

Chinese New Year is so around the corner and I bet , all of my Chinese friends are preparing for the festival . Can't wait to get angpau from my neighbour . Hee~ I have seriously to cope up with all of the form 4's subjects . Burden ? No , they are not ! The first intervention is my first step to SPM . yadda yadda

Not gonna type so much , Homework are piling up and yeah~ toodles peeps !

2011-01-28T18:10:00.002+08:00

Being left out is not the reason for me to be weak . For I know , it's a life norm for us to get through all the ups and downs . I am so frustrated with everything that happens but I will never give up because I know , there is always a million reasons behind everything . And just so all of you know, I AM NOT BEING HYPOCRITE AND NOT ACTING AS A PIOUS PERSON OKAYH ! . This is real ME .

Everybody has their own flaw , and yes , me either obviously . My words doesn't worth everything you've done . I never meant to keep everything in my heart . In fact , I pray to The Almighty to make things clear and help me throughout all these circumstances .

My partner is a bullshit ? prove it right . You never know who he really is .

Please , I don't wanna act like an immature kid . I am not an attention hogger . I know you are tired with all of this thing , SO DO I ! It's your right though to hate me as well . That's why I'd rather stay in silence because I know this thing will happen and yeah it is now . Fags .. I wanna make this post sounds vulgar but I've got no idea why it turned up like this =='

Chi Yan , I was so touched when you offered me to share your add maths notes . Yeah your tuition teacher is funny indeed . hehe .

plus minus and equal to ?

2011-01-19T15:26:00.003+08:00

Add math made myself feel so dumb where I know I am not dumb . When I tried out the exercises given , I think even a snail can moves faster than me . Somehow , I feel that add math is like teaching us how to appreciate the memories and not to erase them away . This part , only myself could understand why . When I mused it back , it's funny and no , I am not dumb .

As long as I am me , I am still fine . If you are not you , stay away .

I found that I have been neglected by someone . Maybe . Okay , enough . And lately , I don't think that I have spend time with Mabel as much as I used to . We less talk to each other since we are kind of busy with study . I miss every moment where we go GAGA . haha . Because of the flu haven't get rid itself from me , I have difficulties to speak properly . Sounds like an idiot but no . I am not an idiot .

I know myself is in the crowd . But why do I still feel that I'm alone ?

ehem ehem : you were special to me , now , you are not . sorry .. your apology means nothing .
ehem ehem : have to set my mind " Yasmeen , go ahead and think positive ! "

i missyou

2011-01-18T13:58:00.002+08:00

I've lost myself when you are not in my sight

Do you know how much I miss you ?

take it

2011-01-17T14:22:00.002+08:00

because every time as the morning light arise , I know I've got my new vision to pursue .

I would like to say my gratitude to En. Ghani for teaching me Add Math . Honestly , he's the next who managed to make me feel into Add Math after En. Khai . I might sound lame here but I'm being honest . Despite he loves to give a ton of homework to us heyy , think on the bright side , it's for our good sake . I admit , the homework given by him is seriously like a burden , however I try my best to finish on time . I KNOW IT'S HARD ==' dude , our first intervention will be on February 14th weyh . omg .

Add math homeworks are piling up . Time to off . ♥

self

2011-01-16T13:59:00.002+08:00

I am authentic yet awesome

Be on your own and that is apparently the best

The time given to you is too short for you to be else one

#200

2011-01-15T14:34:00.002+08:00

I am becoming heartless since the moment I read that one piece of statement of yours .

Shut up if you didn't mean your apology deeply because it hurts me more than the bad deeds you have done to me .

Though I am sick like dying now , I do not necessitate your attention . It is obviously fake .

WHERE ARE YOU WHEN I NEED YOU THE MOST ?